option b

these 2 words are still stuck in my head. today is technically my fault but the whole deal with option b is still floating around in there. i realise that in no uncertain terms. ill always be option b. and with that in mind. i shuld look further den just being that option b. i shuld b the first option available.

with that said. im kinda screwed considering how i have 3 hrs to sleep but i just cant get any again. i get this really often nowadays. i need pills. i needa be like towelie. in any case. i need start being that young person that i once was, live a little like a jackass and have a little fun. that makes everything a lot easier.

i said some stuff bout doing not so glamorous things in my life last night. but i shuld prob do it more often, make more mistakes and learn from them cos only den wud i know what a joy it is to be how i am right now. this is just pure blabbering.