brain fried tonight thru misuse

tonight marks the return of a certain prodigal son.
a return that was really not wanted.
it comes at an absolutely wrong time. one when windy is still sufferring from spurts of stomach cramps. yes he sounds meeeeeekly fagggottish. but please do not remind him. if not, he'll show u what hes made of in the oval office of his. literally made up of.

oh well. im freakishlllly sad im condemn back there but the consolation is that its only for a mth so its gonna be like driving thru the underground tunnel. for moments im under the tunnel, wondering whats ahead of me, den suddenly i see the light at the end of the tunnel before heading back into a hole full of uncertainties. somehow that doesnt make too much sense.

im supposed to be getting some shut eye now but i decided against it for the very simple reason that i have too little time n i will probably wake up really cranky and groggy, too bad a condition for me to be in to drive. and just den, it got me thinking.

submissive. i just suddenly thought of the word.. i wikied the word to get an absolute spot on definition of it n i got these:
one who submits
sounds like wrestling so i decided to look at the synonyms:
docile
meek
slavish
timid

den as i type this, i suddenly rem the case of road rage i seeeem to have everyday that i drive. im fucking irritated as hell that pple sound their horns or like fucking look at me when i drive. fucking douchebags. cant u fucking see the freaking triangle. if u cant see it. im gonna print one soo big that it covers ur damn windscreen. in any case. credit shuld be given. u see, ive barely passed for a month now and driving is obviously not my second nature as of yet so u freaking turds need to realise why pple actually have their p plates on. i m proposing a ban, demerit points and even time behind bars for pple who actually take advantage of us.

yes we are using the triangle. but that doesnt allow u to honk at me when im driving at 50 on a road which CLEARLY states 50km/hr as its speed limit. im obeying the rules, u arent. so dont force me to break em. i only have 12 points to spare u dimwit.

well that isnt it. u pricks need to remember the times when u just passed n stopp acting like asswipes to triangle kids. and if u fuckers don stop, its only a matter of time before that sarcastic smile slowly disappears and becomes a finger accompanied by the shoving of as many triangles i have in the car up ur ass. to reiterate my point, heres a link to help u : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Finger_(gesture)

fucking frustration. ive had it.

its been a long long long long time and i swear i cant rem the last time i actually did this. well the period of time between the last time ive blogged has been filled with periods of certain excitement which is slowly turning into resentment and great hatred.

im thru with being the do it all person.
i kinda sorta think that they'll still turn to me but in terms of recognising my fucking efforts, ive had nth in terms of appreciation. absolutely zilch. pisses the shit out of me and its certainly getting on my nerves. he can start treating me the way he does but im starting to wonder if i shuld do the wrong thing and just fuck him over. i regret not doing more in terms of trying to get away but the chances i got were so cruelly taken away from me and they happened twice. how fucked up can that be.
sometimes u don bite the hand that feeds u, i get that. but other times, u don fucking step on the hands of someone who has worked soo dam hard for u, and expect that poor soul to continue shedding sweat and blood they way he does. this thing has gone on in my head for the past 2 nights and its getting on my fucking nerves.

and god so help me if u start changing again and i realise the only reason u change is because of the 4 wheels, i might just run u over with my lemon.